Preface: We had to have our youngest boxer, Nala, euthanized earlier this month. This was a very painful decision that had to be made. The day we said "goodbye" was very rough. I cried A LOT! We told Cayden that Nala was going to go live with Jesus and Bubby (our name for Braxton), and that Bubby would take care of her until we all go to Heaven. *Note...Cayden has never really spoken about Heaven.
The other day, Cayden was playing quietly by himself. He walked past the picture window in our living room, stopped, stared intently for a short while, and continued playing. Several minutes later, he came to me (rocking in recliner in front of window) and said "hold me." He rarely wants to be held (though it has become a daily occurrence lately.) I gladly swept him up and began rocking. He had a very serious look on his face as he continued to stare out the window. I glanced out the window to see if there was a rabbit or cat in the yard, but I saw nothing, so I went back to watching the TV. He probably stared out the window for 2 minutes, and then looked at me and said "lalalala" (Nala.) Our conversation continued like this...
Me: "No honey, remember Nala is in Heaven now."
Cayden: (Pointing out the window and very serious) "mom, Heaven. Bubby"
Me: (very concerned and intrigued) "Where is Heaven?"
Cayden: Pointed out window.
Me: "Do you see Nala and Bubby?" (asking just to see his response.)
Cayden: "Nala tree bubby swing." then looked at me "mama cry"
Me: (tears welling up in eyes) " Is Bubby swinging, and Nala playing?"
Cayden: nodded head "yes" and climbed down to play.
I don't really know if he saw Nala and Braxton, but I am going to hold on to this memory forever. It warms my heart to think that there is a little slice of Heaven right outside my picture window....