Thursday, June 25, 2009

He has promised good to me....

The last 5 months, I have felt as if I was slowly drowning in a sea of despair and uncertainty, as a matter of fact the more I think about it, the last year and a half has felt that way. I would occasionally get myself a small breath of air before being forced back under the water...where I thought I would surely die. It never failed, I always got a small, shallow breath, but then I was right back under. This last week, I felt as if there was an anchor attached to my ankles, and once again, I was certain it was the end. But..... My chains are gone...I have been set free....My God my Savior has ransomed me!!!!

Yesterday, Jesse and I received the best news ever. We had just been praying for some evidence that God had been working in Cayden's body, whether it be through a complete healing or just the fact that the condition had not worsened. We were both on edge and with our heads barely above water when we walked into the waiting area at our specialist's. In the past US, the fluid in Cayden's chest cavity was extremely evident. However, today was different. I didn't see anything....and to confirm my sighting, the US tech also said...I don't see it anymore!!!!

The maternal fetal specialist came in to look over the pictures and he also confirmed that the pleural effusion was almost if not completely gone. There is still a small area that could possibly be fluid, but it is so minimal that we can't even tell.

We also saw a cardiologist that assessed Cayden's heart via Echo cardiogram. One of the major markers along with a thickened nuchal fold(which Cayden still has) for Down's is a heart abnormality. Jesse and I once again took a breath and waited under water for our next breath of air... The cardiologist finished the scan, and said " I don't see any sign of any kind. This is a perfectly formed heart!!!"

And from that moment, the anchor was cut free, and for the first time in a year and a half....I actually took a deep breath of fresh air. I felt like a different person yesterday, I had a weightless feeling that consumed me. God has promised good to me...and he delivered yesterday.

I don't know how Jesse and I could ever repay him for the miracle that he performed. It seems so small a price, but I will continue to praise Him for all that He has done. Cayden is a true testimony to answered prayer. So with that being said, if you don't have a relationship with Jesus Christ, please take the time to say the following prayer and mean it from the bottom of your heart. Your true salvation comes from believing that Jesus Christ is God's only Son that died for our sins.

"Father, I know that I have broken your laws and my sins have separated me from you. I am truly sorry, and now I want to turn away from my past sinful life toward you. Please forgive me, and help me avoid sinning again. I believe that your son, Jesus Christ died for my sins, was resurrected from the dead, is alive, and hears my prayer. I invite Jesus to become the Lord of my life, to rule and reign in my heart from this day forward. Please send your Holy Spirit to help me obey You, and to do Your will for the rest of my life. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen."

It is a great honor to be the mother of two living sons that are true testimonies to the love that Christ has for us.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009


"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4

We have no new news to report. Cayden's chest cavity still has fluid on the left side. We will see the specialist and a cardiologist again in 2 weeks. This is so hard for us, but we know that we have to continue to persevere through all these trials...and we know the outcome will be for the good of all. We appreciate all of the continued prayers and thoughts. The anxiety and worry levels for both Jesse and I have been much lessened, and for that we are grateful!

"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." James 1:12
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