The anxieties of the delivery day are beginning to mount. I feel secure with him "inside." I know that he is safe right now. I am scared to even go to the hospital. I am putting off my "to-do" list until we get within 2 weeks of delivery. I am hesistant about preparing anything. For some this fear seems odd, but I can't fathom preparing again and being let down. I am struggling with putting full trust in God right now. I am constantly reminded of how I prepared last time and then had to tear it all back apart. I know this is satan trying to defeat me, and I will not be defeated. Jesse is battling anxieties himself as well, so to say the least our home is a bit on edge these days.
We will make it. God will see us through. God will not leave us. He is one step ahead.
The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. (Deuteronomy 31:8)