I am in utter amazement. God is working in our lives and yesterday it was more than obvious.
Back in 2007, I decided that we needed to start going to church together. I wanted to experience God like other friends had and were. Jesse agreed that he would go with me. We started and he was a bit hesitant at first.. Going to church was an event for us. We went and we felt better, but we didn't really live it outside of the sanctuary. We continued to go to church and I started reading the word and daily devotionals. I had already been baptized when I was 15, but Jesse had not. I never pushed the issue, I just silently wished he would say " I want to get baptized." I silently wished he would join me in reading the devotionals or the Bible.
We were regular church attendees when Braxton went home to be with the Lord. Two weeks after Braxton's passing, Jesse was sitting on the couch after church holding Braxton's picture and I calmly said "Honey, you did hear that tonight is the water baptism at church." He was silent. He said " I know...I have accepted God and I need him more than ever, but I don't know if I want to go back to church tonight." I calmly said " Braxton showed us that life is too short." He said " You are right....tonight it is!" We were both baptized that night March 9, 2008.
Since that day, we have both had are days when all we wanted to do was yell and scream at God. "why...why our son," but more importantly...since that day...we have been changed!
There was a sermon a few months back and I specifically remember Pastor saying that the man should be the spiritual leader in the household. I thought to myself that I just couldn't see Jesse stepping up to that role. I was so glad that he was attending church and had been saved, but I really never believed that he would want to get involved any more than just attending church. I am here to say that I have seen the changes that God has made in my husband. I am here to share with you that miracles that I have seen.
~baptized on March 9
~raises hands in worship
~he is very curious about religion
~he is very attentive and inquisitive about every sermon
~he makes it a point to talk about the sermon every sunday afternoon.
~his idea to go see a movie with our church
~he wants to be an usher at our church
~he tells me that we are getting up and going to church
~he reminds me daily that Braxton wouldn't come back if he could b/c living with God is perfect!
~he wants to start helping with the car care saturday (men change oil for single or military wives)
~we have made a commitment to join the church as members
~he wants to go to a dinner theatre night at church!
~and finally yesterday's awe moment.....
Jesse and I were "farming" yesterday and this is what was said.
J: So, do you have the book of James....is that the Bible you are reading??
D: (slight snicker) Honey do you mean "The King James version"
J: Yeah..thats it.
D: No, mine is the NIV....New International Version.
J: Well, as I was praying the other day, I got a feeling that I would start reading the Bible everyday. What do you think? I mean I really think I want too.
I was speechless....I wanted to say "Praise God" I never imagined when I took him to church several years ago that he would ever WANT to read the Bible. It is amazing the changes I have seen in the last few months and even days! God is working a miracle in him. God is Good...All the time ....All the time...God is Good!