Friday, June 27, 2008

slap in the face....

I have forgiven and I have to do so everyday, but I will never forget . I left the hospital with a feeling that maybe just maybe something was terribly wrong with Braxton. Or maybe the cord really did cause the trauma. I accepted that.....then three weeks later I get to read this.....


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The wound was reopened. And to this day it remains bigger than ever. How can someone be so thoughtless, how can several people look you in the eyes and sincerely say "we have no idea." or "do you hear that, it is your baby's heartbeat" (when in fact it was mine all along). We trusted these people. You trust these people. If anything, I want to raise awareness for medical negligences cases. Do you know how many people have walked from those doors empty handed and truly thought it was all just a freak accident. They sugarcoated everything and tried to sweep my son "under the rug."

Were you there did you see a crazy lady screaming for the baby she couldn't take home. Did you stop and pray or did you calmly walk away?? Did you see her grabbing frantically at every thing in sight. She left that day without the baby she nurtured, loved, and longed for. There were things she had planned. There were dreams they had. Did you see the entire family sobbing as they watched a baby being taken from its mother? Now, she lies awake and sobs at night, while "they" sleep and work on.

Forgivenes is hard to do, but my Lord demands it. So that is what I do. I rest in knowing that heaven is Braxton's home and that is all he will ever know.

6 comments:

Erin said...

i am so sorry you are going through this. as i read your story i get goose bumps. i am so mad at the staff that didnt do what they were suppose to....it pains me to hear that the people that are suppose to help you and care for you didnt do their job. i will pary for you and your family.
Erin

seth said...

you don't know me, but I am praying Hard for you today! I am praying for your comfort! Know that you are loved by Him! Anya

Jenni Saake said...

Destiny, my heart just breaks for you when I read this report about medical negligence. Prying for you right now as you live, moment-by-monent, only by the strength of Christ.

Jenni Saake from Hannah's Prayer
http://www.HannahsHopeBook.com

Rebecca said...

Hi and (((((HUGS))))))

I just said a prayer that God would bless you with another baby.

Normally I'm not big into suing but I can't help but think maybe that needs to be done........

Rebecca said...

Hi and (((((HUGS))))))

I just said a prayer that God would bless you with another baby.

Normally I'm not big into suing but I can't help but think maybe that needs to be done........

Anonymous said...

I too, lost a baby. Mine was with me in my arms for a bit.
Then my bf's ex-wife found out about our child. She made false accusations about child abuse. And the courts were only too happy to believe it, and to try to promise my healthy baby with no disabilities to another couple.
In real life, sometimes the bad guys do win. They lied and lied under oath in court, but the caseworkers still have jobs. The doctors who made the wrong call about Braxton will still get their paychecks, and bonus's.
And what can I do? I don't have thousands to press a lawsuit. That just breeds hate.
Let God be the judge

 
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