Monday, April 13, 2009 I am !!!

I am still alive. The last few weeks have been a little rough on me. I battled a terrible sinus infection/cold over my Spring Break. And then severe morning sickness took its toll on me. I was in the hospital for fluids and meds on Thursday. Friday got worse and had to have a home health care nurse come to our home and put in two IV's. One for fluids and one for meds. Of course my body didn't like this at all, and I started to get very jittery from the constant flow of medicine. I am currently sitting here without either iv on.....and I feel pretty good! However, I also have a terrible cold/cough AGAIN. I am telling you that Indiana weather is not good on me. It goes from 70 one day to 25 the next. It never fails, I always stay sick throughout Spring and Fall.

On the brighter side of things, the baby is doing very well. We are now almost 13 weeks. We have seen and heard the heart tones. I fall in love more and more everyday.
I was able to go on a women's retreat to Louisville Kentucky with 8 other friends two weekends ago. We had a blast and it was so nice to finally have all my friends together in one place. We stayed at one friend's family home, and let me tell you it was the best bed in breakfast around!! Not really, but it sure felt like one. The weekend was very emotionally draining for me. I was able to get a lot of my pent up emotions about Braxton out and in the open. It amazes me that one day I am fine, and the next two days are nothing but tears for the son I didn't get to bring home. I am coping and doing my best. Sometimes I just need to let it all out. And regardless of what some people say....I will never get over this.

Jesse's first race was on Sat...and yes like an idiot I tried to go. Needless to say, I didn't make it very long and my brother had to come get me. Jesse did an awesome job. He finished 3rd!!! Secretly, I am glad we didn't win, b/c I wouldn't have been able to live with myself for missing that. I have yet to miss a race, and Sat was the first.

As usual our animals are keeping our pockets empty and us on our toes. Outlaw (the fat cat) was diagnosed with diabetes and needs two injections of very expensive insulin everyday!
Princess (the dainty boxer) had to have a $600 surgery to repair a busted blood vessel in her ear. And of course Nala (the big baby) is going blind...... I am telling you I should have invested in pet insurance 6 years ago. I am such a softie when it comes to animals. I couldn't just give up on them b/c of diabetes, busted blood vessels, or bad we will foot the bills that will continue to follow!!

I wish I had some fun pictures to share, but I have been so "down" lately that I don't even know where my camera is. But if you want to see some great pics of some super adorable kids go to my friend Sunny's page The Red Nine.

I have a good post brewing that I really would like to share, but I first need to get someone's permission.

Much Love,
Destiny and baby!!


Kellie said...

So good to hear from you! I pray that all this crud will pass and you can really enjoy this time with your little one!

Kate said...

yeah for an update! congrats on 13 weeks~

The Cantlons said...

So glad to hear you are doing well. Happy 2nd Trimester!! :)

Krista said...

Oh my goodness girl. I wondered what happened to you! Hope you feel better soon and that you can kick this last cold and stay off the IV.

Anonymous said...

Hello Destiny, Wow! Glad you are feeling better! Great race Jesse! Sounds as if you are in a normal greiving period for Braxton, whatever that may be, different for thoughts and prayers are with you daily. I do not think people want you to really get over it, I agree with you, you never will, I just think they care for you so much, they don't want to see you still hurting, if that makes any sense...but we have not walked in your shoes, you have come far in a year....your faith has seen you through, when you do not feel as if you can go on. We are very excited for your pregnancy and new little one to come, but we know this child will not replace Braxton ever...we will never forget either. Your faith and love for each other (u and Jesse)have pulled you thru and will continue on so you can and will have more happy days than sad in the future...when that may be, only God knows, so its ok to have good and bad days I think....I think your heart has healed some, but will never be the same....I know, but I also know you are a great Mom to Braxton in heaven, and he is smiling knowing how much you cared for him and neat that you talked to him, the womb and had such a connection already..Gosh, I am missing him too at this moment...I also know you will be a Great Mom to any other children you have and will love them beyond words and they will be happy, loving children and grow up to be happy loving adults who love the Lord...Not only will you be blessed by them, but they will be blessed by you. Take Care, and a hug for you today...Love, Aunt Judy

Sunny said...

Try to hang in there! That totally stinks about the SEVERE all day sickness... Here if you need me. :)

(and thanks for the shout out!)

Hope James Wilson said...

Just checking in...glad to hear you're feeling better...& that you're precious baby is 13 weeks old :)

AmandaHoyt said...

I'm so sorry you have been feeling so rotten, but I'm glad you and the baby are now ok.
Many hugs and prayers,

Anonymous said...

I think about you all the time Destiny, I'm so glad you and Jesse are doing so good!!


AmandaHoyt said...

Haven't heard from you in a while. How are ya'll?
Hugs and prayers,

The Cantlons said...

Hey Destiny. Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you. I hope all is well with you and your family!

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