~My little man~

~Cayden Matthew

~Bubba

 ~momma's little man

~booga

~precious

~studly

~silly billy

~monkey

~munchkin

~mommy's earthly angel

~big boy

PERFECT

"Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD,  the fruit of the womb a reward." Psalm 127:3

Our Twin Pregnancy- Month Six

~Week 21~

I woke up early on Thursday feeling like everything had dropped.  I was having pain around my cervix when standing.  Called the Dr, and they had me lay on left side for the day.  Pain eased up a little and was gone by Saturday.  Still feel pretty good for being pregnant with twins! 

~March 2~ (22 weeeks)

Today we had our "big" ultrasound.  We prayed and prayed that everything would look great.  We were praying for no "scares" like we had with Cayden's ultrasound.  The ultrasound couldn't have gone smoother. 

Baby A is a BOY!! I think I grinned for 10 minutes!  Heart rate 152.  Measuring exactly 22 weeks. ~1 lb.  Brock Adam--meaning--Braxton comes from Brock's town....so we like that they both were in each other's meanings.  Adam--sticking to Bible middle names. 

Baby B is a GIRL!!  Our dream come true.  Heart rate 148.  Measuring 21w3d.  ~15oz.  Lynlee--combination of my middle name and Jesse's.  Grace--God's grace is endless!!!

Hearts, kidneys, brains, bladders, stomachs, faces, hands, feet all checked out PERFECTLY. 

Funny story:  (Note: Our Dr does not show emotion at all.)  After the US we headed to our Dr appt.  He was scanning through the US pictures and started to chuckle.  He then said  "well this is an undeniable gender picture..he has his own kickstand!"  I thought I was going to fall off the exam table, I was laughing so hard.

~Week 23-24~

Nothing really exciting going on.  I am extremely hungry all the time, and I never feel like I can get enough to eat....this is going to really pack on the pounds!!  I have been craving sweets like crazy.  Heartburn is pretty intense.  I had a chiropractic adjustment and pregnancy massage during week 23, in hopes that it would help me sleep a little better.  I got  a few nights of relief, but my hips are back to burning and aching at night.  I hear all the time that I am not very big for carrying twins...but can I just be honest and say that I feel very "heavy."  I realize that my belly doesn't look big, but it is definitely heavier than carrying a singleton.  I still don't feel Lynlee very often, but Brock is definitely a mover.  I have a large to-do list of things that need done before the twins arrive, but most of it is stuff that I would prefer waiting until closer to due date....however, I know that I won't be able to do a lot the further along I get....so I have to get started soon!! 

24 Weeks!

Pregnancy Symptoms: HUNGRY, HUNGRY, HUNGRY.  Heartburn. Sore hips.  Heavy/bloated feeling. 
Cravings:  Chocolate chip cookies, brownies, ice cream....you get the drift...anything SWEET.
Weight Gain:  appprox 13lbs.

~Wordless Wednesday~

"Is my baby ok?" "My baby is ok, right??"

February 14, 2008 3:28am

Fluorescent lights humming.  Cabinet doors opening and closing.  Somber faces on bodies that appear to be moving in fast forward.  IV pump incessantly beeping.  Scratchy noises coming from heart monitor.  Tired Dr looks confused.  I roll left.  I roll right.  Still tired from pushing.  I am calm.  I am naive.  Surely something isn't wrong.  Why are they all looking at everything but me.  Internal probe inserted and nothing.  Conversation overheard between doctor and nurse "Get her ready for ER C-section."  Calmly I asked "Is my baby OK?"  Nothing.  Maybe they didn't hear me.  Jesse why won't you say anything.  A little louder. "My baby is OK, right?" Nothing.  No one looks up, no one acknowledges my question.  After a look from me to Jesse what is going on , Jesse asks a little louder than myself.  "Is the baby OK?"  Finally the Dr looks up and says " We are getting very erratic readings from the internal probes, we are going to get the baby out as quickly as we can via C-section.  My bed moves quickly.  The lights look light flashes.  What has gone wrong?  I was still naive.  Still excited to finally meet this bundle we had dreamed of for years, this miracle in my belly.  Daddy's Dream Mommy's Miracle. 

If only I had known.  Do you suppose "they" knew it was too late??

Our Twin Pregnancy: 5th month

~January 30~

I feel like a completely different human being.  The headaches have eased up quite a bit.  My energy level is finally rising!!!  I feel the babies on a daily basis, but the movements are still very butterfly like...slow and light.  I really have to concentrate to feel them.  I am so glad that I am starting to have the 2nd trimester "feel good" stage.

(February 2)

~February 7~

We had a rough few days because we hadn't felt baby B for about 3 days.  We had our 18 week appt today, and everything looked good.  Dr. discovered that the placenta is on the surface and was buffering most of baby B's movements.  We were hoping to find out genders today, but no such luck.  I have gained 6 lbs total. 

~February 16~

My belly is really starting to get BIG!(Although, compared to pictures of my belly with Cayden...I am smaller now!)  I have had 3 nights of pretty restless sleep (I hope this doesn't stick around!)  Other than being uncomfortable at night, I feel pretty amazing for carrying twins!  One more week and we enter month 6...CRAZY!

~Recap~

Pregnancy Symptoms: Restless sleep, heartburn, painful hips, INCREASED appetite.
Cravings: Fish sandwiches (I HATE fish!!), Chocolate chip cookies
Weight Gain: 6.5 lbs

(This picture is actually the start of month6...but I wanted you all to have a current picture!)

~Braxton's Hope Boxes~

Today marks 3 years since we said hello and goodbye to our first born son, Braxton Lee.  We try to do something special each year to celebrate his life, and this year we made Hope boxes to donate to the hospital where Braxton was delivered.   God has been pushing me to do something to "give back" in Braxton's honor, and I can't think of a better way than to help other grieving families.  I know these boxes won't take the hurt away or make it any easier, but I pray that they provide some comfort to the families by knowing that they aren't alone.  I was touched by the outpouring of help we received to get the boxes ready;  we had several women make blankets and hats for the boxes,  a dear friend and fellow baby loss mom helped make an advice brochure for the families, a very artistic friend helped make handprint and footprint cards, and my mom helped me find the perfect boxes and journals.  We will be delivering these to the hospital tomorrow around 1....please say a prayer for us and the families that will eventually receive these boxes. 

Each box contains:
~Two matching handmade blankets (1 to go with baby, and 1 for the family)
~Hat
~Bunny
~Handprint and Footprint Cards
~"Heaven Born" Pillow
~ Journal
~Picture Album
~Grieving Advice
~Willow Tree Remembrance Box

  Front of sympathy card

Braxton's Hope Bunnies

5 for girls and 5 for boys




Happy Birthday baby boy.  We love and miss you.  I hope we make you proud. 

~Falling Apart~

Feeling these emotions all over again.  Can't believe that tomorrow marks 3 years.  My heart still aches.